God is amazing!
Some of what has happened this year is starting to make sense. Not necessarily logically--I'm convinced that God does not operate in the realm of human logic-- but deep down, I have peace. Contentment. Excitement.
The past few weeks and months have been tricky for me. I've decided that perhaps the best description of me has been "an emotional powder keg on a roller coaster." Naturally, "Why?" was a constant question in my mind. With the help of Joyce Meyer's book, Battlefield of the Mind, I found that trying reason with everything often makes us only more confused and tormented because we don't understand God's ways. I knew I needed to relax. I would tell myself about all the benefits I've received from the path my life has taken. I would try to talk myself into being content. And still I would cry. I guess it was just something I needed to work through.
Last night, after talking with my mom for a few hours, I sensed true contentment. The kind from my heart, not my head. Now I know why I'm home right now: I need my parents. They never tire of hearing about my life. They pray for me every day. They support me. They know me and how I work. They know when I need time to myself and when to make me talk. My mom especially understands me because I'm the spitting image of her. We handle things the same way. So her rebukes and her advice are always in my best interest. My parents are amazing. And because of what I've been wrestling with lately, I need them close by.
And you know what else? My move to my parents' house opened the door for my roommate's friend to move from Michigan to Texas. See, what's God's doing in my life is not affecting only my life! He has a greater plan!
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